Growing and Soul Searching...

I've been doing quite a bit of soul searching lately. A few years back, Mark and I were in a situation that God clearly called us out of. Mark was at peace with it quickly, and I struggled. I knew what I needed to do, and it was to move on. However, I don't like feeling insecure, and I was in a familiar, comfortable spot. My private walk with God wasn't growing much, and although that was my personal responsibility, I was remaining in circumstances that weren't encouraging growth. We did make our "move", and it's been blessed in many ways. Truly, looking back I am so thankful.

I'm currently in a Beth Moore Bible study, and if any of you have heard her speak, she has such a heart for God and really challenges her listeners to seek God. She has a rather painful past, and though my experiences were different, I can relate in many ways. I've become aware of my own fears and insecurities, and also that God is the only One who can fill certain needs I have. This morning in our study, I was challenged to look at who I am when it is just me and God. That time is the heart of my relationship with Him and matters so much.

I'm also thinking about my priorities, and I intend to limit my online time a bit more. Right now the baby is sleeping and the older two are at school, but I don't want them to remember me on the computer. With a difficult pregnancy and then bed rest, I was on here a lot, but now it's a new season. There's a lot good online, advice, information on all sorts of things, and of course Facebook! It's a pretty neat tool for keeping up with friends and family. I'm not saying goodbye, but I'm not going to try to read my whole feed anymore. Please know that if you need prayer, support, or encouragement, you can always send me a private message, and I will make sure I read those.

It's now time for me to get a few things done before my sweet baby wakes up.