First of all, I'm woefully behind in blogging here. I'll leave the good news about Ellie for another post since I think most everyone is on FB already. In short, we're just watching the malformations and no surgery at this time.
Since I'm all too familiar with PPD, I'm pretty aware that I've been battling it recently. I want to be open and help others, but also be careful how I bare my heart on a public blog. I've been fighting some anxiety and insomnia. I tend to get really down on myself and easily frustrated and overwhelmed. Sometimes it's kind of like being in a fog. I have trouble making decisions even as simple as what to eat, or remembering things I should remember. Yesterday at our church picnic, one of my friends asked who had Nathan, and I couldn't remember the lady's name who was holding him! Of course, I knew who was holding him...her name just escaped me.
I'm not sure what I'll do at this point. I'm still seeing a wonderful therapist I met when I had PPD after Ellie. She was one of the study coordinators, and has been a big help to me. There are risks and benefits to medication changes, especially since I'm still nursing Nathan.
I'm grateful for my DH. He tries so hard to make things easier for me. Our carpets needed a good cleaning, more than what the carpet cleaner we own does. So he rented a machine, and spent hours cleaning the carpets for me. Sure, he likes them clean, but I know the real reason he did it for me.
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